HOW COULD YOU? -
By Jim Willis, 2001
When I was a puppy,
I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called
me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple
of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I
was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could
you?" -- but then you'd relent and roll me over for a belly rub.
My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you
were terribly busy, but we worked on that together. I remember
those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your
confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could
not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the
park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone
because "ice cream is bad for dogs" you said), and I took long
naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the
day. Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your
career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for
you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and
disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions, and
romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love.
She, now your wife,
is not a "dog person" - - still I welcomed her into our home,
tried to show her affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because
you were happy. Then the human babies came along and I shared
your excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they
smelled, and I wanted to mother them, too. Only she and you
worried that I might hurt them, and I spent most of my time
banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh, how I wanted to
love them, but I became a "prisoner of love." As they began to
grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled
themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes,
investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved
everything about them and their touch -- because your touch was
now so infrequent -- and I would've defended them with my life
if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their
worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound
of your car in the driveway. There had been a time, when others
asked you if you had a dog, that you produced a photo of me from
your wallet and told them stories about me. These past few
years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I had
gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented
every expenditure on my behalf.
Now, you have a new
career opportunity in another city, and you and they will be
moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've made the
right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I
was your only family. I was excited about the car ride until we
arrived at the animal shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of
fear, of hopelessness. You filled out the paperwork and said "I
know you will find a good home for her." They shrugged and gave
you a pained look. They understand the realities facing a
middle-aged dog, even one with "papers." You had to pry your
son's fingers loose from my collar as he screamed "No, Daddy!
Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for him, and
what lessons you had just taught him about friendship and
loyalty, about love and responsibility, and about respect for
all life. You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my
eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you.
You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too. After you
left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your
upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another
good home. They shook their heads and asked, "How could you?"
They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy
schedules allow. They feed us, of course, but I lost my appetite
days ago. At first, whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to
the front, hoping it was you that you had changed your mind --
that this was all a bad dream... or I hoped it would at least be
someone who cared, anyone who might save me. When I realized I
could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy
puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far
corner and waited.
I heard her
footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day, and I padded
along the aisle after her to a separate room. A blissfully quiet
room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told me
not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to
come, but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love
had run out of days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about
her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her, and I
know that, the same way I knew your every mood. She gently
placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her
cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you
so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into
my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing
through my body, I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes
and murmured, "How could you?" Perhaps because she understood my
dog speak, she said, "I'm so sorry." She hugged me, and
hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a
better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or
abandoned, or have to fend for myself -- a place of love and
light so very different from this earthly place. And with my
last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my
tail that my "How could you?" was not directed at her. It was
directed at you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of you. I
will think of you and wait for you forever. May everyone in your
life continue to show you so much loyalty.
A Note from the
Author: If "How Could You?" brought tears to your eyes as you
read it, as it did to mine as I wrote it, it is because it is
the composite story of the millions of formerly "owned" pets who
die each year in American & Canadian animal shelters. Please use
this to help educate, on your websites, in newsletters, on
animal shelter and vet office bulletin boards. Tell the public
that the decision to add a pet to the family is an important one
for life, that animals deserve our love and sensible care, that
finding another appropriate home for your animal is your
responsibility and any local humane society or animal welfare
league can offer you good advice, and that all life is precious.
Please do your part to stop the killing, and encourage all spay
& neuter campaigns in order to prevent unwanted animals. Please
pass this on to everyone, not to hurt them or make them sad, but
it could save maybe, even one, unwanted pet. Remember...They
love UNCONDITIONALLY. Now that the tears are rolling down
your face, pass it on! Send to everyone around the world! This
IS the reality of dogs given up to shelters! |